Sometimes it is hard for me to understand why things are done.
Sometimes I go along with things and am later hurt when someone is offended, especially someone who told me otherwise.
Sometimes I can't stand the world and my mind that never seems to take a break.
All the time I'm tired and cold, waiting for the sun.
Hanover College is nice. Academically it is fairly challenging. My bed is a bed, my roof keeps the weather out, and warm meals are provided all day.
Socially, as always it is horrible.
Not horrible, but still, social. Which, I guess, is what one would expect. It is just so difficult sometimes and I want to disappear. But, I guess i don't need anyone else but me.
And what I have noticed is that you can never really predict someone else. You may trust an individual, but it doesn't matter, as they will act in their own interest no matter what. This, I find exhausting.
But at least I have realized this. It is much easier to avoid hurt and confusion when you have the guts to face the truth.
I guess it is just a matter of adapting and trying to find a way to be happy. Repetition of the phrase "I am happy, I am happy" maybe?
I am happy.
Adios.
As difficult as it was to reach Spectre, I was fated to get there eventually. After all, no man can avoid reaching the end of his life -Edward Bloom (Big Fish)
